She was Dear to me

I want to follow you into the darkness
My dear friend
I want to step in those same footsteps
That have taken you there
I want to breathe the same air
The stale and stagnant molecules
I want to follow you into the darkness
My dear friend

Two dark eyes
So void of any life
You were gone long before you ever died

I want to follow you into the darkness
My sweet soul
I want to step into those same footsteps
The ones that you chose
I want to breathe in the dry dust
And choke on the musk
I want to follow you into the darkness
My sweet friend

It hurt not to know
If the choice was truly yours
But you promised so many times that you would shut those doors

And I want to follow you into the darkness
My dear
I want to step into those same footsteps
Without a hint of fear
I want to suck in the air
And forget that we are there
I want to follow you into the darkness
My dear

Oh they say there is a lot that we don‘t know
But I felt that searing pain before they ever told me so
They say it could all have been a sad mistake
But you told me so many times; the steps that you would take...

And I want to follow you into the darkness
My darling
I want to step in your tracks
And never get back
I want to follow you into the darkness
My sweetness
I would carry you on my back
Further into the dark
And we‘d never have to look back

We‘ll never have to look back
Please can I follow you into the dark?

Bright days in May

Bright days in May

They make my heart break

They raise the veil

From my hidden state

It‘s harder than it seems being the same

Being that girl I was before May

I left your side and walked away

Sometimes it feels like I‘m to blame

Bright days in May

when your time came

I could never decide if I was okay

I know it‘s wrong, I‘m ashamed to say

I wish for things that contradict

And the laws of reason are all too strict

You can‘t want that and then want this

But I can‘t make use of just one trick

Bright days in May

You were taken away

I fought half a battle to get you to stay

But who can I blame?

And now all I do is: I fight myself

I break myself up and I go through hell

I crumble to pieces and I still can‘t tell

If I ever did anything well

Bright days in May

But it‘s too late

A heart takes a beating

then turns to hate

If I sometimes forget the best that you shared

If I often forget to remember you cared

I can trace back each scar to a when and a where

I have perfect recall when it comes to the bad

Bright days in May

And they pass away

Every year the same

A nostalgic replay

Whispers the Wind

Your violence was ever present
underneath the surface
I never quite escaped the way
you always made me nervous

The Earth, she told me: "Let it go"
but I could never listen
Your howls were pounding at my door
demanding our submission

I was a clever straw
in bending but not breaking
but Earth, she never quite foresaw
her plates would soon be shaking

And your oppressing whispers
slid through crevices and cracks
and we could waste our wishes
but we'll never get it back

That picture of perfection
that your thrumming words once drew
it was never our reflection
cause our version's always skewed

It gripped our mind, for her and I
we wanted you around
but you only knew one way in life
and it wasn't on the ground

And to this day I bend my mind
to capture the lost meaning
of painful wounds the Earth still hides
and dreams I don't believe in.