She was Dear to me

I want to follow you into the darkness
My dear friend
I want to step in those same footsteps
That have taken you there
I want to breathe the same air
The stale and stagnant molecules
I want to follow you into the darkness
My dear friend

Two dark eyes
So void of any life
You were gone long before you ever died

I want to follow you into the darkness
My sweet soul
I want to step into those same footsteps
The ones that you chose
I want to breathe in the dry dust
And choke on the musk
I want to follow you into the darkness
My sweet friend

It hurt not to know
If the choice was truly yours
But you promised so many times that you would shut those doors

And I want to follow you into the darkness
My dear
I want to step into those same footsteps
Without a hint of fear
I want to suck in the air
And forget that we are there
I want to follow you into the darkness
My dear

Oh they say there is a lot that we don‘t know
But I felt that searing pain before they ever told me so
They say it could all have been a sad mistake
But you told me so many times; the steps that you would take...

And I want to follow you into the darkness
My darling
I want to step in your tracks
And never get back
I want to follow you into the darkness
My sweetness
I would carry you on my back
Further into the dark
And we‘d never have to look back

We‘ll never have to look back
Please can I follow you into the dark?

Destroyer of Worlds

I like to pretend that things unravel on their own

That I fold away the loose ends but they never really hold

I pretend that I‘m a seamstress

When I can‘t sew a stitch

I pretend that I‘m a sweet girl

When really, I‘m a bitch

And with a needle on my thread

I hem up the universe

At least I‘ll have you buying it

Until the second verse

Cause I‘d like to think I‘m trying

But it‘s hard to be so sure

When the yardstick that has mesured all my failures before

Lies broken on the ground and will not measure anymore.

I‘d like to be your savior

I‘d like to be your knight

I‘d like to be a lot of things but I can‘t even fight

You ask me what I am

As if I‘m sure to know

And maybe I‘m supposed to  have an answer fit to show

Please just stop insisting

That I‘m more than what I am

Sometimes definitions take the meaning by the hand.

Hey there, I am girl

It feels nice to say my name

I‘m sure if you forgot it, you‘d still recognize my face

I like watching you unravel

While I pretend to fix

All the little flaws that have lead you up to this.

I told you not to follow me

I told you stay away

The momentary pleasure is just far too much to take

Hi there I am girl

Destroyer of worlds

I‘ve got the needle and the thread, now tell me where it hurts?

I like to pretend that things unravel on their own

That I fold away the loose ends but they never seem to hold

If I can‘t see it coming, then it can‘t be my fault

I‘m not the one who pulls the string to watch as you unfold.

The Spark That Drives

Oh God, Oh God,

Oh not again

I waited 15 years for this to end

Let go, Let go

Just let it go

But there isn‘t a large enough ammount of snow

To freeze this rush before it starts

I wish I could let go of my heart

Why is it always just one nudge?

It doesn‘t even have to be touch...

Just somekind of recognition

15 years and that‘s still the ignition

The spark, the thing that stutters me alive

The fuse is lit, now fucking DRIVE

But no, no, not that

We‘re just at it again

A samba, a tango and it never ends

You shift to the right and I shuffle to follow

Thought I carved that shit out,

My DAMN CHEST IS HOLLOW?!!

How on Earth do we always get back?

Repetitive roller-coasters

Off of our tracks

It‘s not even surprising anymore

I was seventeen years old when I showed you the door

For the first time

A Rhyme

Oh another

Good times

Seems like all we can muster is write out our lives

I‘m a muse of perfection

You‘re a hero of old

An untouchable deity

Made of marble and gold

And I‘ve sworn to you once and again

“It means nothing unless we’re still friends”

We forget

We move on

And you think it’s all gone

You etch paths in your skin

To let someone  e l s e  in

They can try that…but they’ll never win

We’re the terrible two

Fated destiny twins

Oh god, oh god

Oh god no…not again

I can wait no more lifetimes

For this bullshit to end.